cherry

cherry, cherry
that's what they called me
ever since
the blood was made to flow
like the time that boy hit me
and made it come out of my nose
he wanted me
to be weak like a girl

they used to call me cherry
because one day
someone dressed me up
like a little doll
i stood four feet tall
but still it was a long fall
as they knocked me
to the floor
they were sickened by me
as i did a twirl
for them, for them
it was always for them
the ones who lost their
innocence at the stem

and i was green
at first
and then red
blood blooming
because i wouldn't
do what they said

cherry
before i reached
the age of maturity
because one night
i met a man
and was he sweet like family
or just another stranger with candy?
i cannot tell
i do not remember
such chokecherry things

but we shared
a bed that night
and he unwrapped us
like a tampon
just me and him
with only a blanket on
and i could go on
but i'd just as well
would like to stop there

i never was very tough
they called me cherry
because faggot
was a word
that just wasn't enough